The rain had just begun. He picked up his pace. He was hoping to catch one of the quicker buses to his destination. Out of the corner of his eye, and through the veil of his perception he saw another man struggling. The rain had picked up too. He stopped to observe this individual. Cars zipped past him. Was he in a state of apprehension?
“Excuse me, can I help you.”
“(Hesitantly) – Ah yes, um, actually I need to cross the road, but you will get wet in the rain.”
“It doesn’t matter, let’s go.”
“(Gratefuly) – Thank you so much. So, where are you going?”
“I am going that way.”
“Then we are going in the opposite direction. This is out of the way for you.”
“Not at all, I will catch a bus from there.”
“So, where do you live?”
“Somewhere around this region. 7-8 kilometers from here. Do you want to take the escalator or the ramp?”
“The escalator will do, I think.”
During their conversation, the two negotiated NUMEROUS sidewalk ledges (climbing up and down), cars and awkwardly placed sign/advertisement boards to make their way to the foot-over bridge. Just as the relevance of the questions picked up, the instructions and cautions to avoid obstacles came thick and fast. They picked up their pace. One in the lead, with the other almost struggling to keep up. One focussed on getting to the destination, the other preoccupied. Since, they were concentrating on their steps, the questions faded. They reached the foot of the escalator.
“We are at the escalator.”
“(Attentively) Ok.”
“Take your step now. Bye.”
I was too caught up in the crossfire of emotions going through my head. I felt discomfort, guilt, contentment, confusion – all at the same time. As I saw him ascend, his face contorted with an impulse of fear. He looked deserted. I realized, I had helped him onto the escalator, but how would he get off? A heavy rush came between us and I couldn’t get onto the steps, leave aside forcing my way through the crowd. I couldn’t see him. I just prayed he would be alright.
He did not know he had to turn right after getting off the moving stairs. He walked straight. Slowly, with caution. I realized he was making his way back down to the side where he started from.
My work was far from over. I scurried towards the ramp, ran up to the second level where he had stopped. He realized he was going the wrong way. He turned slowly. I quickly rejoined him.
“Sorry for leaving you like that, I got a little confused.”
“(Relieved) Its alright. So where are you going? Do you study somewhere here?”
“I am going to my college. It is a considerable distance from here.”
“(Hopefully) – Do you travel everyday?”
“Yes, but the time varies.”
“(Slightly dejected) – You must be running late?”
“Nah, I have plenty of time. I’ll get you to the other side first.”
We crossed sides, and got off the correct ramp. I was probably walking too fast for his comfort. He never complained. He was grateful. We reached the other side. I asked a sensible looking fellow to help the man onto a suitable bus. I bid him farewell. He thanked me, he said goodbye. I walked away.
I realized, I had not handled the situation in the best possible way, but my intentions were good. I was awed by the situation. I was trying to be too nice, too gracious almost to the extent of showing pity for this stranger. In retrospect, I came to the understanding that while asking me all those questions he was hoping our travel timings or route would match. My reading of the situation could be absolutely wrong. Maybe he was simply being nice.
I and many I know, complain about traveling long distances. We complain about the lack of a routine, of comfortable transportation and so much more.
The man I helped today had impaired vision.
I wonder how he feels each day. We should be grateful for the blessings we have and enjoy. I was humbled today. I deserve no praise, no credit for what I did. In reality, I am guilty for not having done something like this earlier in my life. The state is guilty for turning a blind eye towards its responsibilities. Society is guilty. I wonder how he travels on days when fools don’t ‘help’ him cross the road.
What kind of world do we live in? We all have our own destiny, they say ..
We live in an awful world and I think I can see the truth, yes
On my blog, I try to uncover the truth and I hope people will help me do that
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By: nickp1991 on August 12, 2008
at 11:45 pm
Er… that’s too deep t be answered in our lifetime man, and after that – it’ll have changed too much for the answer to be meaningful.
I guess you did the right thing – which is a bit better than doing the normal thing… or something…
By: Nimish Batra on August 13, 2008
at 5:17 pm
If I were visually impaired…
1. I’d ask people to call me blind and not “visually impaired”
2. When I ask someone to help me cross the street, I’d tell him I’m blind and ask him to direct me accordingly.
The intentions of your post are good, decay. But I don’t subscribe to this school of thought even slightly. Helping people is good, but I personally felt that you portrayed this blind man as being helpless and needy of society to help him do something as simple as cross a road. There was an unintentional, but omnipresent sense of superiority in this post. How “we” ought to help “them”. How would you feel if everyone else believed it to be their responsibility to help you?
Holier-than-thou doesn’t work. Trust me, I try to pull that shit off all the time.
By: Harish Alagappa on August 14, 2008
at 8:26 am
Your opinions reek of a stench I cannot put into words. I am finding it hard to hold back expletives for you.
Yes we are superior to him, but only physically, and we should be grateful because what we have may not always stay with us. What kind of superiority leaves one scared and frustrated? What kind of superiority entails the lack of an answer? WHAT SUPERIORTY do you speak of?
Not, once did I feel pity for him. It is a realization that the inconvenience I face is nothing compared to his. Life is hard enough for able bodied people. Crossing the road in this country is not a simple task bucko, you speak as if you have never seen a road.
There is no school of thought doing the rounds here. I feel regret at not helping people in the need of help, people I could have helped. I don’t feel sorry for them. It is not my responsibility to help them all, I am incapable of helping even a few. I feel exasperated at the thought of the mammoth effort we need to make before we can answer questions ..
My post has no intention. I try only when I write something humorous. I wrote what I feel and as I feel.
and you are not fucking blind so don’t fucking be their voice ..
Sorry for the spite and rudeness.
By: Dinesh Kapur on August 14, 2008
at 1:11 pm
Hey hey calm down…
like nimish said.. you did something.. often we don’t have the nerve to do anything
as for the world, it runs by circumstance (not ‘mere’ circumstance, randomness is powerful), nothing really has any ‘meaning’, so all I do is play my cards best as they are dealt out to me, that’s my school of thought
don’t worry too much
By: Anupam Guha on August 14, 2008
at 2:51 pm
It’s difficult to view or rather review one’s life from the cushy and privileged bourgeois lives that we lead today. And it also takes a while to realise how unfair the govt., and the society, is to a physically challenged citizen, who has to go through the humiliation of fixed stares and pity while using any civic facility. The amenities which ought to be their right, are given to them as charity with a hint of benevolent despotism thrown in.
Helping someone in need does not necessarily translate into pity or sympathy or even superiority. But yes, it becomes crucial to be self-aware about the attitude one has towards the person while helping her/him.
It took the occurence of the Commonwealth Games for the govt. to actually introduce low floor buses which were user friendly for these people.. for any regular citizen for that matter. And yet there are people who’d rather hog seats in the buses than give it to people who’re handicapped. So not only is it difficult to be handicapped in a world which would rather turn a blind eye (excuse the pun) to it, it’s also extremely ‘inconvenient’ to be not-so-moneyed on top of it. A person can’t obviously ‘afford’ to be challenged in any which way in this survival-of-fittest day and age.
By: Manavi Kapur on August 14, 2008
at 3:27 pm
a lot of times, you want somehting, you go where you usually get it, and you find somehting so different, it makes you think.
i came here to pass time, monotony gettin to me, happy to be among the dot coms once more (someone cut our lan wires>>we had no net since we came here>>recently got fixed).
try and remember an english lesson we had in 12th?
none of us took it ersiously then. “he” is may be helpless in your eyes, but that makes him feel more elpless than he already is. felt weird then. kinda makes sense now. think about it.
By: Ritwiz on August 23, 2008
at 11:21 pm
You are such a great writer. Your words always
manage to move me !!!
By: Daniel's Critical Corner on August 27, 2008
at 3:04 am